Watching her heartache, was harder than feeling mine

My heart is like a stallion, they like it more when it's broken.

Saying goodbye to you was one of the hardest things I've ever done.
We kissed that one time afterwords, I still have the picture of the Polaroid.
But since then we haven't talked, at least not face to face.

But today,
seeing you made me excited and terrified at the same time
It reminded me of good times we had together
but it also reminded me of why I had to end it all

I loved being with you
but there were always a few things that bothered me
and it felt like a constant war was raging inside my brain
and I couldn't decide which side I was on

Honestly, after it was over
I thought you would hate me.
But seeing you today made things better
It made it easier to confront the things I felt like I did wrong

The way I lied and always said I was happy, even when I wasn't

When I pushed you a little into making a choice neither one of us
were entirely ready for

For being too willing to jump into something deeper than I could handle

"I said I'd never let you go, and I never did, I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it"
With as much as I wish it were true, it wasn't

Seeing you happy now makes me forget a little about the heartache I caused you.
Because I can never forgive myself for watching your heart drop to the floor
And I wasn't there to catch it.

For that I am truly sorry

But now I have another chance with someone else,
So this time, I plan on doing things better.
Not just for her,
But for me too

So thank you for that